i pet my fish

ipetmyfish @ 2008-01-05T13:32:00

2007-12-18T18:47:45Z

oh my gahhhhh! I am an aunt (cute cute baby),

an owner of the most awesome ipod ever, a soon to be owner of a new car, and going to california in a few hours. sweet deal overall, but..

yesterday was a poop and a half. I went to the doctor (and got Ativan, a prescription drug for anxiety) so yay for that! I also went to the optometrist and got new glasses, and to walmart to return some things.

Well later my dad decided that we should go out to eat, which sounded great...and then he told me that Layne would be meeting us there. That's my dad's girlfriend. I didn't want to meet her, but he was in a rush to leave and I went with him on a quick decision. On the way there though, I was thinking about the situation and was extremely uncomfortable. I started crying in the car and felt like I couldn't hold it back. By the time we arrived to the restaurant, I was sobbing and told my dad that I was going to stay back in the car. As soon as his door shut I let out a scream. I. miss. my. mommmm. and moving on at this point seems impossible. So I called my aunt Spring to talk about it and told her, crying, about the situation. Then she started crying and talking about how much she misses my mom too, and how it's unfair. Then she suggested that I call my dad to give me the key to the car and go somewhere else for a while. Well, I did, and when he came out he got in the car and almost started it to go. He said that we should go home and I told him no, he should stay and eat with Layne. So I convinced him, although he looked like he was going to start crying too. At that time, I knew that I had never felt anything like this before. For all this time, I've always had some sort of inclination to what I would feel in a certain situation, but last night I just knew that this was completely different and unique, and the most difficult thing I've ever had to go through.

I went to taco bell across the street, and I wanted to go through the drive through because when I cry my face and eyes are really red. But I had to pee really bad, so I went inside embarrassed. I ate a very lonely dinner and went to walmart, then went to pick him up. I got to talk to him a little bit about it, and I felt bad because I know he's just trying to be happy.

So now it will be awkward when I really do meet Layne. I'm just not ready though. I cannot see any other woman with my dad that is not my mom without totally freaking out into a panic. I guess there is no way to describe it.

well i hope you all are having a nice winter break...I will update later!

ipetmyfish @ 2007-12-09T17:40:00

2007-12-09T23:04:19Z

so many things to talk about...ahh!

I was taking a shower a few days ago, shaving my legs and noticed this:

at first I thought "oh my god I really need to shave!!!" but then I realized it was a bruise. and I have no idea how I got it. I guess that is college? But I don't drink...?! weird.

Finals start tomorrow--let me just say that is going to suck. I have cell and molecular bio and I can't wait to get it over with. The one i'm really really dreading though is organic chemistry. I'm really afraid of how hard it's going to be, and I really need to get a good grade!

However all of this stress is being offset by the fact that I know what Marco is getting me for christmas! Yeah this happened because we were in a "heated battle" about guessing who was getting the other person what, and at the end he was just like, "guess what I'm getting you, and I'll just tell you if you're right." So I guessed it was either jewelry or a new iPod (I had gotten a lot of clues out of him) and I guessed right on one...he got me an ipod touch 16gb. So i'm really excited because he ordered it, it's coming in a couple days (tuesday) and he said I can open it when it comes because I can use it for our family trip to california! So basically every five minutes I go to fedex tracking to see where the thing has gone which is really distracting me from studying but oh well! Here is what it looks like in case you have been in a cave for the past 4 months:

My friend Kristy is due to have a baby in 12 days!! and I'm soo excited for that, I'm going to california for christmas and new year's, and then buying a new car (Honda Fit) and driving it back to school. I guess you could say my break is going to be very exciting. But that's a good thing because this is the first christmas of my life without my mom. I plan on making her legendary apple pie while trying not to cry. I guess every happy time has something sad to shadow.

Bye for now =)

ipetmyfish @ 2007-12-01T00:18:00

2007-12-01T06:19:35Z

So sorry I kinda forgot about this thing for a week, oops! My thanksgiving went well, I went to south carolina which was fun...but I did NOT get the slvr phone, I got the razr instead because that's all they had. So I guess I'm officially a sell-out, haha. However I have a "skinit" in the mail right now, which I custom made for my phone. www.skinit.com

Has anyone ever listened to an album and thought it was awesome but didn't want to tell anyone because it was by an "embarrassing" artist? Well, I'm going to clear this up right here and now:

Albums that You Wouldn't Expect to be Awesome but Really Are! (Top 10, in no specific order)

1. "Let Go" Avril Lavigne

I actually didn't used to be embarrassed to say that I was a fan of hers, that was...until she came out with the single, "Girlfriend." That song is in my opinion a complete joke. BUT I kept claiming that "she used to be so much better!" so I went back and listened to this first album of hers, and realized how much I really like it. It's one of those that actually has all good songs, and although I can't say it's genius...it IS really catchy, fun to listen to, and you won't feel like you want to skip any tracks.

2. The All-America Rejects (Self-titled)

Okay, I know I always say that I hate emo, and a lot of people think this band is emo, but please just hear me out before you judge! It may be because my sister and I listened to this album all the time and I just got used to it, but I really do think that this album is amazing. Yeah, the main singer is slightly whiny, but the lyrics plus melodies plus instrumentals all flows together really well. Yeah, the first song talks about "please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed," but the album gets better. "Swing, Swing" was their hit off this album, but the whole thing keeps that same good rhythm going. "Why Worry" is my favorite, and they end the album perfectly with "The Last Song."

3. "The Young and the Hopeless" Good Charlotte

Before you laugh, just go back a few years and try to remember how much you loved their hit, "Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous." Now I myself wouldn't consider this band emo, it's more just...a teenage diary. Okay so that sounds really emo, but listen...everyone goes through shitty teen-years (until college, that is) and has to relate to at least a few of the things these guys sing about. My only complaint is the random scream in "My Bloody Valentine," which is randomly an emo (yet catchy) song. But that aside, this album is actually pretty good. I mean it really is fun to listen to, and to remember your life a few years back. And although the overall tone of the album is "down," the last song, "Movin' On," really does pick it up and leave you on a good note. Again, this list is not for you to read and think, oh god, I already know that I HATE them...it's to let go of the assumptions and give it a chance (and don't be embarrassed to admit to liking it).

4. Jimmy Eat World (self-titled)

I hope no one is embarrassed to say that they love this album, because it is amazing. From beginning to end you get non-stop good listening. Not only did they have four hits on this album, but all of the other songs also just as good if not better. One of the songs, "Hear You Me," opened the photo slideshow at my mother's memorial service. Now that folks is an honor to a song (I had a lot to choose from, and this one just really hits home). Listen and you will be enlightened. "Cautioners" and "My Sundown" are two other songs that are perfect for pick-me-ups and reflective times. Let me just say this...by the end of "My Sundown," I feel like I'm ready to take on the world, no matter how bad of a day I've had.

5. "Meteora" Linkin Park

This album is perfect for a great workout. I can honestly say that every single song gives me a new jolt of energy to keep me going on the elliptical. This album is also great for when you're really angry and want to vent. But really, I'm putting this album on the list just to tell everyone that I think it's great and like many others on here, does not require "skipping" through tracks.

6. "Home For Christmas" N'SYNC

Okay so I can't say that you're going to love this if you don't celebrate Christmas or don't like Christmas songs. BUT otherwise, this album is probably one of my favorites for christmas time. N'SYNC gets a lot of shit for being a "gay" boy band, but you all know that you have loved them at one point in time. And if not, then it's time to give them a try. Yeah this is the cliche Christmas album made by a popular band, but they really put a creative spin on it. Eleven out of 14 songs are original (not traditional Christmas songs) and are done very well. My favorite is "Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays," an N'SYNC original that puts me in that nice little cheery holiday mood.

7. Savage Garden (Self-titled)

An oldie, but a goodie (is that how you say it??). You will recognize a couple of old hits on this album, but even the ones you don't recognize are good. It's a little different but very well done, and another one of those that doesn't require skipping around!

8. "Come On Over" Shania Twain

This is one for the girls...I can't say that all guys are really going to like it. It's a really fun album to listen to, and no one should be ashamed of Shania Twain. I mean, I guess guys might be a little embarrassed to be singing along to "Man! I Feel Like a Woman!," but it's okay, because you can just say you listen to her because she's hot (is she? I don't even know). Anyway this album is really diverse which is one of the reasons I like it so much. From the really fun songs, to the love songs, to the sad ones, it really takes you all over the place and back. I hope that's not too figurative but work with me here! If you're going to listen to country, or Shania, make this the one!

9. "The Beautiful Letdown" Switchfoot

Now apparently this band is Christian...and I guess I can see that, but in my little world, they remind me of secular ideas (again, hear me out!). When Switchfoot talks about "The Beautiful Letdown" on their album-titled song, to me it seems like he is singing about the letdown of realizing you don't believe in God (of course this doesn't apply to many people, but this is just me). And when they sing "Meant to Live," This is Your Life," and "Dare You to Move," I just feel so rejuvenated and refreshed, like I can accomplish all of my goals. "On Fire" and "Twenty-four" are songs that are great to listen to when you're in the mood to think and reflect. Overall this album creates a great feeling and is very well done.

10. Blink-182 (Self-titled)

Don't get confused--Blink-182 released their self-titled album last, long after they hit it off. Many fans thought that this album was too different or just didn't like it for some reason. I don't know a lot of people that have heard it or own it. However I have to say that I think it is just as good as their other albums, just different. You have to listen to it with an open mind and not expect your regular Blink. This was the first album to ever go on my iPod (keep in mind I have had it for 3 or 4 years) and it's the only thing I listened to during a family trip to NYC. It's unique, but still accessible enough for everyone to enjoy. Yeah Travis Barker goes a little crazy on the drums in a solo, but it's really cool to listen to. I think this has to be their "maturing" album, seeing as how they don't talk about grandpa's eating too many hot dogs and shitting everywhere. I don't know about you guys but sometimes you just don't want to hear about that!

ipetmyfish @ 2007-11-19T23:56:00

2007-11-20T05:02:43Z

First of all, I would like to start by saying: comment if you would like to be added to my list of friends (if you aren't already).

So yesterday Marco and I went out to the river, but first we stopped to take some photos on campus. Here are some of my shots...

After that, we went down to the river and took a lot of photos, which I wanted to post, but it's getting late. I'll definitely post them tomorrow sometime.

I am so excited to go down to South Carolina for thanksgiving...and get my new phone! They better still have it in stock...

I love that phone. And oh yeah, lately...I've gotten to experience the feeling of having nothing to do, which is so refreshing right now. Bio is kicking my ass! woohoooo

until next time,

heidi

Restart and renew

2007-11-19T03:19:41Z

I am back and planning on posting often! I'm excited to start using livejournal again.

Actually today I just read all of my previous entries and it was good. Reading about my mom being sick was difficult and the poem I wrote a year ago made me want to cry, but it inspired me to start up blogging again--I think it helps me work through my issues and plus I love putting news on here and reading comments.

Today marco and I went down to the river and took lots of pics--which I still have to go through but I will post them soon!

-Heidi

ipetmyfish @ 2007-01-09T14:37:00

2007-01-09T19:45:21Z

2006 questions:
[ P E O P L E ]
best friend: marco, kristy, ryan, kimberly
lost any friends: yeah
gained any friends: yeah

[ P L A C E S ]
went out of the country: switzerland!
moved: to CNU
new school: CNU!
how many times have u been on an airplane: to/from swtizerland, to/from naples, florida
road trips: OBX!

[ Y O U ]
have you changed: yes
new look: longer hair, bangs
most depressed time this year: mom being sick

[ L O V E ]
did you fall in love: yes
did you get heartbroken: no
who was your summer love: marco! but he's also my winter, fall, and spring love haha

[ S E A S O N S ]
favorite Season: summer
least favorite season: fall
good birthday: definitely
any snow this year: not really
highest temperature: no idea

[ F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S ]
kept your resolution: didn't make any
got arrested: no
smoked weed/drugs: no
had a crush: no
got dumped: no
lost a family member: no
got bad grades: no
got a myspace: deleted it
kept a secret: yes
done something you totally regret: not to the extent that i'm dwelling on it

In 2006 I...

[ ] broke a promise
[x] made a new best friend
[x] fallen in love (been in love)
[ ] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[x] went behind my parents back
[ ] cried over a broken heart
[x] dissapointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[xxxxx] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed my life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[ ] almost died
[ ] given up something important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[xxx] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[ ] stayed up til sunrise
[x] pigged out over the summer
[ ]met someone from myspace in person
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] partied more than 5 times
[x] was never home on weekends
[ ] got into a car accident
[x] found a person i never thought i'd become real good friends with
[x] had friends who were drifting away from me
[ ] had someone close to me die
[x] was in a relationship(s)
[x] became wiser
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[x] wasted most of my money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach
[ ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] became closer to a lot of people

random.

ipetmyfish @ 2006-12-12T20:13:00

2006-12-12T20:13:33Z

Look! I got a new

and I LOVE it! I've been taking a few random photos today such as one of my dad ranting to me about something...

and one of my glasses on my nightstand

I'm really impressed so far. Maybe it's the camera, or the lens (which I bought separately) or the fact that I'm just so exciteddddd.

but anyways. can't wait to take my new baby to switzerland. =)

Zürich and such

2006-12-05T00:27:15Z

I don't know if some of you knew but this Christmas my family is going to Zürich!! Very exciting city in Switzerland...and I've never been to Europe.

My dad thought it would be a great treat for my mom, who is still fighting cancer and is up for a trip. He wants to give her a great trip because she's been through so much...and Ashley and I are coming too because it's christmas! We'll be there for a week.

I'm really excited about this and gosh...it's a totally new feeling. Ever since I found the drug Ativan (or Lorazepam), I have been able to peacefully get on and off of a plane...and actually look forward to trips that involve air travel. This used to be non-existant; I would be so nervous that I wouldn't want to go, no matter where the trip was to. And then I would go crazy on the plane. So I'm just so thankful that I can finally enjoy a trip, and I know drugs are just a scapegoat but there is just no other way right now.

Another thing is that I'm going to trade in my Olympus for a Canon...finally putting up my white flag and getting the big brand--I've been told time and time again that it will make the difference that I need, such as continuous shooting that my olympus failed to do right. Also high ISO was killing me with the Olympus.

So I hope everyone is surviving finals and has a great break.

btw: how did you like the photos? haha

ipetmyfish @ 2006-11-20T04:17:00

2006-11-20T04:17:51Z

~Theater Kid~
[x] Ever been in a School play?
[x] Have you ever seen a Broadway/West End show?
[ ] Seen more than 10 shows?
[ ] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater?
[ ] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[x] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever?
[x] Do you like the Sound of Music?
[ ] Did you like the Broadway show?

Total: 4/10

~Redneck~
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[ ] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[x] Do you like to get dirty?
[ ] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[ ] Do you live on more than 1 acres?
[ ] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[x] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies?

Total: 2/10

~Goth~
[ ] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[ ] Is most of your clothing dark?
[ ] Do you think about death often?
[ ] Do you want to die?
[ ] Are you a social outcast?
[ ] Are you pale?
[x] Do you own something from Hot Topic?
[x] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?
[ ] Are you mean?

Total: 2/9

~Punk~
[ ] Can you skateboard?
[ ] Do you wear Vans, dcs, converse, ect.?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[ ] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[ ] Do you watch the x-games?
[ ] Do you have any piercings?
[ ] Do you like/wear a mohawk?
[x] Do you wear Band t-shirts?
[x] Are you a rebel without a cause?
[ ] Have you called someone a poser recently?

Total: 3/10

~Hippie~
[x] Is your hair long?
[ ] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[x] Do you want to save the animals?
[x] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[ ] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[ ] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[x] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
[ ] Do you play a ukulele or os?
[ ] Do/have you ever smoked the peace pipe?
[ ] Do you wear a peace sign around your neck?
[x] Do you just sit in the grass with your friends and play guitar?

Total: 5/10

~Gangsta~
[ ] Do you act ghetto?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[ ] Do you like hip-hop?
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you believe he's alive?
[ ] Do you like afros?
[x] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[x] Do you like to dance?
[ ] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?

Total: 2/10

~Emo~
[ ] Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies?
[ ] Do you like hard music?
[x] Do people not understand you?
[ ] Do you write your own poems?
[ ] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[ ] Have you ever cut yourself?
[ ] Are you LONELY?
[ ] Do you like ohio is for lovers by Hawthorne Heights?
[x] Do you think a lot?

Total: 3/10

~Surfer~
[ ] Do you surf?
[x] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[ ] Is your hair shaggy?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[ ] Are you tan?
[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[x] Do you hate tourists?

Total: 4/8

~Geek~
[x] Do you wear glasses?
[x] Do you get good grades?
[ ] Do you use an inhaler?
[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[x] Are you on the computer often?
[ ] Do you ever get picked on?
[ ] Do you look forward to going to school?
[ ] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[x] You play video games?

Total: 4/10

~METALHEAD~
[x] Do you have long hair?
[ ] Do you like Beer?
[x] Have you ever been in a Moshpit?
[x] You don't believe in god?
[ ] You got a Pentagram on some clothing article etc.?
[ ] You own some spikes?
[ ] Can you play guitar?
[ ] Can you growl?
[ ] Do you own Boots?
[x] Do you rock out?

Total: 4/10

so i'm a surfer and a hippie? good one.

Better than iPod?!

2006-11-14T21:53:07Z

Just saw an ad for this thing...

the Zune by Microsoft...

30 gb, comes in white, black, and brown
large color screen

wireless "zune to zune" sharing
built in FM radio

4.4 in. x 2.4 in. x 0.6 in. (h x w x d)

Weight: 5.6 ounces

Battery[2]

Music, up to 14 hours (wireless off), up to 13 hours (wireless on); pictures, up to 4 hours; video, up to 4 hours

Charge Time: 3 hours; 2 hours to 90%

Display

Size: 3.0 inches

Orientation: Vertical and Horizontal

Resolution: 320 x 240 pixels

Audio

Windows Media® Audio Standard (.wma): Up to 320 Kbps, CBR and VBR, up to 48-kHz sample rate
Can also use iTunes

MP3 (.mp3): Up to 320 Kbps, CBR and VBR, up to 48-kHz sample rate

AAC (.mp4, .m4a, .m4b, .mov): Up to 320 Kbps, Low Complexity (LC), up to 48-kHz sample rate

Pictures

JPEG (.jpg): All resolutions (desktop software will automatically convert to 640x480 at sync time)

Video

Windows Media Video (.wmv): Main Profile, CBR or VBR, up to 1.5 Mbps peak video bitrate, 320 x 240 pixels, 30 frames per sec., with Windows Media Audio up to 192 Kbps, 44.1 kHz, stereo audio; Simple Profile, CBR, up to 736 Kbps video bitrate, 320 x 240 pixels, 30 frames per sec., with Windows Media Audio up to 192 Kbps, 44.1 kHz, stereo audio.

Wireless

Connectivity: 802.11 b/g
Range: Up to 30 feet

Play your music through your car stereo without an annoying FM transmitter...and play your videos through your car's monitor (if it has one) all while charging the zune. Available in Feb. of 07

Price for the Zune? $250

ipetmyfish @ 2006-11-08T04:34:00

2006-11-08T04:34:44Z

watch this video marco made about his haircut...it's hilarious.

http://www.marcoceppi.com/mullet.WMV

ipetmyfish @ 2006-11-01T16:34:00

2006-11-01T16:34:36Z

Hello all! Thanks for the comments about the last entry. Here's what I decided to do:

First, I found a person that I thought would be nice to be a personal pen pal with...and I chose this guy named Carlos Castillo. He's from texas and is serving time for possession of drugs. I sent him a personal letter asking him what I can send him, such as articles, photos, crosswords, anything. I also told him that I would like to be his friend and talk to him about what's on his mind.

After I wrote that letter I decided that I wanted to share my love with more than just one person...so I made a newsletter for people in prison, then chose 10 people to send it to (because of all the stamps I had to use!). The newsletter had a section about me, a joke, a recent article from the news, horoscopes, and 3 photos (1 from the news, 1 funny/random, and 1 inspirational).

Here's a bit about Carlos...

" I am 45 years of age, 5'9" in height, 190 pounds, and I'm from Dallas, Texas. I'm a Hispanic who like writing, music, reading, drawing, listening to people, and working out. I'm easy going, outspoken, and down to earth. I'm seeking a female friend who is easy going has an open mind, a good sense of humor, unafraid of a challenge, has principles and morals about herself, loves to write, honest, out spoken, and patient. Color, race and creed does not matter. I do hope to hear from a caring woman with a caring heart who's willing to invest quality time in writing, and in return I am willing to give the same back. Most of all, I am seeking that special woman who understands that the greatest kindness that two people can offer each other is truth and friendship. I'll respond to all who write and I hope to hear from you soon..."

And here are the people that I sent the newsletter to:

Name: Askari
Convicted of/release: Armed Robbery, Aggravated Assault/2012
Quote from description: I am 5'5" in height, 185 pds. in weight. I am a multi cultural black man who enjoy's exercising, yoga, reading, writing poetry, meditating, and making people smile. I am also a strict vegetarian.

Name: James
Convicted of/release: Armed robbery/life or 2019
Quote from Description: My seemingly impossible quest is to find an honest, caring woman of any age or race who, like myself, desires a meaningful, friendly relationship.

Name: Rayshaun
Convicted of/release: Carjacking/2019
Quote from Description: Loneliness is everywhere many people feel cut off and alienated from others. Being in a crowd just makes people more aware of their isolation. We all need friends who will stick close, listen, care, and offer help when it is needed in good times and bad.

Name: Mark
Convicted of/release: DUI/2007
Quote from description: I am looking for open minded friends who are fun, energetic and very creative. I love sports, education and music of all kinds. I like to have fun in everything I do. I have a real big heart and am considered a really nice guy.

Name: Encarnacion
Convicted of/relase: Murder/Never
Quote from description: I have been incarcerated since February 2000 and am serving a life sentence for murder. I am not eligible for parole until 2030 but hope for the best and wait to receive correspondence so that I may continue to learn and endure the years ahead.

Name: Cornelius
Convicted of/release: Attempted Murder, Robbery, Burglary/2015
Quote from description: Hey, I'm just looking for someone to write to who will be my friend. I've been here in prison since 1993 for some pretty serious stuff and now that there is finally some end to this in sight within the next few years.

Name: Ryan
Convicted of/release: Conspiracy to Distribute Controlled Substance, Possession with Intent/unknown
Quote from description: My travels led me to Sin City, where I am currently fighting a federal case. I thought I was living the dream, Sex, Fame, Money, and Drugs, but it turned out to be more of a nightmare. I lost sight of what was really important in life: love, family and REAL friends.

Name: Derald
Convicted of/release: 2nd degree murder/never
Quote from description: My name is Derald Givens and I am serving an undetermined life sentence. I appeal unto you with honest hope of not being preconceived as a common criminal because of my current circumstances.

Name: Hugo
Convicted of/release: attempted murder/unknown
Quote from description: I'm a real simple guy. Many people are confused about what is a greatest value in life, they think they would be truly happy if only they were rich and could buy anything their heart desired. But as those who amass great fortunes discover money and things it can buy don't bring lasting satisfaction "peace of mind." Empty is the life that's filled with nothing, but things.

Name: John
Convicted of/release: attempted murder/2012?
Quote from description: This is my first time imprisoned, and I never realized how difficult the pursuit would be for friendship or a decent companion.

So...there are SO MANY MORE PRISONERS THAT NEED A SIMPLE LETTER! I am going to try to complete this list and buy more stamps but any other communication that these people can get will be great. Here's a link to the site's most desperate prisoners (the ones that haven't gotten much/any mail): http://prisonpenpals.com/xtra.html

=) pay-it-forward
random acts of kindness

Please read and give your opinion...

2006-10-31T22:28:35Z

For my entire life I have been a caring person, and lately I have wanted to share my love with people in need. Two options have floated around my head for a while--sponsoring a needy child and becoming a "pen pal" with a prisoner. I explored the option of sponsoring a child but the monthly cost, although not too bad, is too much for me (as a college student) to handle. The second option is of course cheaper but is a big big step for me to take.

Becoming a pen pal with a prisoner has many positive effects, but has the possibility of being negative. Prisoners live in a world of solitude, lonliness, neglect, depression, and regret. Being in a prison cell for years and years really does stuff to your head. I myself believe in second chances but more importantly...that every person has the potential to be good. I want to write to a person that has no one else--whose family has abandondoned them, who doesnt have friends, who has no contact with the outside world. I want to give some hope to this person, teach them that they can improve their lives, and that there is someone out there that cares about them. Another option is that I can write to a person on death row--one that needs communication in an unthinkable situation. Although this system seems so good and mentally healthy, there is still something that is holding me back--the fact that a convicted felon, murderer, robber, etc, will have contact with me. It is difficult to know who to trust. I will be using my PO box, so I feel safer with that, but I am still apprehensive with telling them personal stuff. I was thinking of just starting with a "small" criminal, like one convicted of a robbery, first. What are your thoughts on this? I really want to do it. I'm just a little afraid...but if I dont do this, who will? others like me, I guess. the world needs more people that care!

share your opinions about this prison pen pal thing! I need to go to the gym...

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-30T19:06:00

2006-10-30T19:08:28Z

ever had hiccups so bad you could taste vomit coming up your throat? ew.

this is so dumb...hiccups for the 2nd time today. haha but that's random.

MARCO IS HERE!!

let life begin.

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-27T14:32:00

2006-10-27T18:34:05Z

I have a big decision to make.

and for my brain, it's life or death.

today, two years ago (the entry)

2006-10-27T04:39:00Z

today two years ago, in my livejournal...

"No one told me that sex was cheap, that love was just a distraction, or that California was fake. No one thought to mention that Fuse was such a charm, that school lunch was poisonous, or that alcohol and orange juice have the same effect. No one ever told me that the Boston Massacre was a snowball fight, that this country was not founded on Christianity, or how conformity is a disease. I would've liked to know that life is what you make it, a smile can make you cry, and a baby given 6 months to live can have an 18th birthday.

I have a small slab of clay. Watch it turn into the most beautiful creation you've ever laid eyes on."

Happy 20th Birthday, Kimberly...even though you had to be in surgery for your cancer.

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-23T23:02:00

2006-10-24T03:02:26Z

oh i'm so fickle hehe.

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-22T17:37:00

2006-10-22T21:38:13Z

WHY?!
am i so absent minded

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-22T06:02:00

2006-10-22T06:07:16Z

it's 2 am, my usual bedtime, and I'm feeling so completely exhausted.

this weekend has been THE SHIT. friday was awesome because of the MASSIVE MONKEES that came to CNU (they're a breakdancing group) and they were amazing. they had so many great moves and tricks up their sleeve!

then today...the homecoming football game, which I got to shoot up close and personal (on the sides of the field...next to the coach, other football players, and other press!). I got some cool shots but I guess sports aren't my thing...or I just need more practice. After that was dinner and then Ryan and I went to the dollar store to pick up some stuff for a prank on mattie.

We bought:
- clothes pins
- rope/line
- duct tape
- face masks
- air freshener

now, the teaser...I'll tell you what we did + give pics later today! right now i'm going to bed cause i'm

SOOOOOOOOO TIREDDDDDDDD!!!

p.s. BETTER THAN EZRA concert was tonight and THEY ROCKED SO MUCH ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! THEY ARE AMAZING!!

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-20T00:39:00

2006-10-20T04:41:15Z

SCANDALOUS.

tonight, on the scandal scale:

9.1

(1-10, 10 being the most scandalous)

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-18T21:17:00

2006-10-19T01:20:14Z

With a little love, and some tenderness
We'll walk upon the water
We'll rise above this mess
With a little peace, and some harmony
We'll take the world together
We'll take 'em by the hand
'Cause I've got a hand for you
'Cause I wanna run with you
Yesterday, I saw you standing there
Your head was down, your eyes were red
No comb had touched your hair
I said get up, and let me see you smile
We'll take a walk together
Walk the road awhile, 'cause
'Cause I've got a hand for you
I've got a hand for you
'Cause I wanna run with you
Won't you let me run with you? yeah
Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I'll take you to a place where you can be
Hold my hand
Anything you wanna be because
I wanna love you the best that, the best that I can
See I was wasted, and I was wasting time
'Till I thought about your problems, I thought about your crimes
Then I stood up, and then I screamed aloud
I don't wanna be part of your problems
Don't wanna be part of your crowd, no
'Cause I've got a hand for you
I've got a hand for you
'Cause I wanna run with you
Ah, won't you let me run with you?
Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I'll take you to the promised land
Hold my hand
Maybe we can't change the world but
I wanna love you the best that, the best that I can, yeah
Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I'll take you to a place where you can be
Hold my hand
Anything you wanna be because
I...Oh...No, No, No, No, No
Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I'll take you to the promised land
Hold my hand
Maybe we can't change the world but
I wanna love you the best that, best that I can
Oh, The best that I can

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-17T12:57:00

2006-10-17T16:57:50Z

in the group for people with the last name "pankratz"...

"If your friends knew what the name means, they wouldn't give you crap. In the original Greek, PAN = ALL and CRAT = STRENGTH or MIGHT. In the ancient Olympics, there was a wrestling event call the Pancratium, as in All Strengths (all holds) allowed. In religious usage, Pancreator means Omnipotent or Almighty. In other words, if your friends aren't literally worshiping the ground you walk on, it's clear that they don't know Greek."

BOW DOWN! hehe =P

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-16T02:00:00

2006-10-16T06:01:53Z

love it here
want to go home
dont miss my parents
miss my parents
glad i dont have pets
miss my fish
glad i'm here
miss the mall...randomly

mixed emotions.

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-14T19:40:00

2006-10-14T23:41:17Z

I just voted for my first time!! (absentee ballot)

it was cool; I feel like an adult because I got to vote on if such and such schools should be renovated...schools I went to! Plus other things.

VOTING IS COOL...GO DO IT!

ipetmyfish @ 2006-10-13T16:13:00

2006-10-13T20:15:03Z

rottie strikes again...
we put one of mattie's condoms on his banana and stuck it in his desk drawer =D

teehee